Holding On.....

When you have a child who is ill, much of what you once thought was important gets stripped away.  This week has been a time for letting go of many of the things we thought mattered, and buckling down to what does:  Family, friends, and faith.

My heart has been upheld by the gift of prayer and love given by so many.  People who stopped everything to ask what, if anything they could do.  Offers ranged from a note telling me that someone would drive my car home from the ER if needed (something that would never have crossed my mind!) to food, laundry, dog walking and cat box cleanup.  We missed church on Sunday, but I'm betting that there was loud applause when the pastor told them that we were on our way home!

The soundtrack of my mind is always playing.  But this week, starting in the ambulance, and continuing until now, it has been this song:

Hold On To Jesus

I have come to this ocean
And the waves of fear are starting to grow
The doubts and questions are rising with the tide
So I'm clinging to the one sure thing I know

I will hold on to the hand of my Savior
And I will hold on with all my might
I will hold loosely to things that are fleeting
And hold on to Jesus
I will hold on to Jesus for life

I've tried to hold many treasures
They just keep slipping through my fingers like sand
But there's one treasure that means more than breath itself
So I'm clinging to it with everything I am

I will hold on to the hand of my Savior
And I will hold on with all my might
I will hold loosely to things that are fleeting
And hold on to Jesus
I will hold on to Jesus for life

Like a child holding on to a promise
I will cling to His word and believe
As I press on to take hold of that
for which Christ Jesus took hold of me

So I will hold on to the hand of my Savior
And I will hold on with all my might
I will hold loosely to things that are fleeting
And hold on to Jesus
I will hold on to Jesus for life

Hold on for life

Stephen Curtis Chapman.

I'm holding.

DeeDee